That finals feeling
I'm having a feeling of helplessness, or perhaps it is guilt, or maybe some loneliness. I really can't quite pin what it is but I know what is causing it.
My husband, a part-time MBA student, is drudging through end-of-semester projects, papers and studying for finals. He has basically been sequestered to our little office during the weekend and evenings since the middle part of last week.
Meanwhile, I have been cheerfully placing Christmas decorations around our house, adorning our Christmas tree, baking, folding laundry, exercising, watching TV, etc. It struck me on Wednesday evening when he came home from 2 hours in class only to go straight to the office for more studying that I felt bad for him (or maybe for me). I honestly don't know what time he stopped studying because I was dancing with the sand man long before he came to bed. I wish there was something more I could do for him, other than prepare meals and keep him supplied with clean underwear. I even asked him what else I could do. The harsh reality is that there is really nothing I can do.
I remember how busy I was during my undergrad career but watching someone else deal with that workload when you aren't is a very different vantage point. About this time last year, someone mentioned to me that when a spouse goes back to school and continues to work full time, the whole household goes back to school. I'm really starting to grasp this truth!
The great news is that after Thursday night when he turns in the final paper, he is free from books and studying until mid-January and hopefully I'll be free of whatever feeling it is that I'm having.
My husband, a part-time MBA student, is drudging through end-of-semester projects, papers and studying for finals. He has basically been sequestered to our little office during the weekend and evenings since the middle part of last week.
Meanwhile, I have been cheerfully placing Christmas decorations around our house, adorning our Christmas tree, baking, folding laundry, exercising, watching TV, etc. It struck me on Wednesday evening when he came home from 2 hours in class only to go straight to the office for more studying that I felt bad for him (or maybe for me). I honestly don't know what time he stopped studying because I was dancing with the sand man long before he came to bed. I wish there was something more I could do for him, other than prepare meals and keep him supplied with clean underwear. I even asked him what else I could do. The harsh reality is that there is really nothing I can do.
I remember how busy I was during my undergrad career but watching someone else deal with that workload when you aren't is a very different vantage point. About this time last year, someone mentioned to me that when a spouse goes back to school and continues to work full time, the whole household goes back to school. I'm really starting to grasp this truth!
The great news is that after Thursday night when he turns in the final paper, he is free from books and studying until mid-January and hopefully I'll be free of whatever feeling it is that I'm having.
posted by MJ at
12:38 PM
1 Comments:
Sounds like you're doing a lot for him already, don't be too hard on yourself. Those "little things" like laundry, dishes, cooking, paying bills, etc. allow him to focus on school without burning the candle at both ends. He is lucky to have such a loving companion as he makes the journey through grad school! Keep up the great work, and don't underestimate how much he appreciates you!! :)
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