Point of Clarification

Based on some e-mails and messages that I've received, I want to reassure everyone that Jeremiah is not going somewhere shady for daycare. Yes, it's safe and clean. It ought to be for how much more we are paying! Some of her policies are not what we're used to, will take some adjusting, and are prompting us to do some things at home that he was previously getting about daycare. We can deal with all that!

I'm not in love with this provider because I was hoping for someone who would care "about" my child, not just "for" my child! It feels like she is running a business out of her home, not opening her home for the care of children. I just don't think our personalities mesh and, frankly, I get a bit miffed when she tries to analyze him, his responses towards us, and his daily habits without really even knowing him yet. On day one, she made some comment about how he probably has to be forced to give us a kiss goodbye because little boys don't like to do that. NEWS FLASH - this is part of our every day routine and he freely hands out hugs and kisses and I'm proud of that!

I hope this helps clear things up.

What's been happenin'

Weeks have passed here with little blogging and it's not for lack of content. It's more because I'm not sure what was on my mind has been ready to share with the entire free world. There's quite a bit I would like to write, but some of it is meant to stay private, so it will.

Jeremiah and I made the move to Tipton 2 weekends ago. I will just summarize that it has been very difficult for me to adjust. I'm certain I miss his provider and some of the other comforts and ease of the life we had built in central IL more than he and Daddy. I'm also seeing changes in him that I believe are directly related to the upheaval in his world. JT just thinks he's 2, but I see things that weren't happening before. Between me and my readers, I'm really not in love with his provider here, but for now she lives next door and it would be awkward to move him! And there weren't many other openings elsewhere that we were comfortable with.

I'm the venus part of this household. I guess it's to be expected, but I don't think any of us expected the level to which I would have difficulties with this all.

I do appreciate the opportunity to work from home. It has its isolating moments, but there are also much fewer distractions, in my opinion. I made my first trip back to CU this past week and it was like I had just been out on vacation for a while. Everyone was very welcoming! However, I am currently still cussing about the construction made possible by the fabulous stimulus package. &*)#$%!! It took me over 4 hours to get home Friday and that took a MAJOR toll on my emotions and feelings about the possible success of this arrangement. I'm now plotting out alternative, less direct, routes. This is a no travel week so it will be another new experience.

I reached out to members of the local chapter of a women's group that I belonged to in CU. The lady I spoke with brought over cookies, slush and a hug. She seems very nice but did admit that most of the group is my mother's age and older. I just noted that one women joined the group in 1946 - not exactly my peer group but a nice group of ladies, I'm sure.

We're off to meet my new OB on Thursday. I hope she's nice but its also highly unlikely she'll deliver me, unless this baby happens to come on a Thursday morning between 8 and noon. So, I'm not planning on getting too attached.

That's what's happenin' here. I should probably make some noise so my boys wake up or we'll be putting Jer to bed at midnight. Mommy needs more rest than that!

Generational difference

I had an interesting conversation with my mom this morning about the differences in how women of varied generations have approached life, its events and its challenges. My grandmothers followed their husbands and did what they expected them to do. My mother's generation found ways to be indepedent and bucked up to do what they needed to do in order to get through life. It doesn't mean it was what they wanted, needed or expected all the time. My generation wants to go a step farther and be happy while we're living life. Sometimes that doesn't align with what we need to do.

This was an interesting perspective and I have to say that I agreed with most of what my mother was saying. I want to be happy with my life and, in that, I don't want to have to hunt for the nuggets of happiness. I want it to encompass me and flow through me.

Really, don't we all want to be happy?

Hidden messages

After a long talk with JT last night, I switched on the TV in my bed to see the end of an episode of "According to Jim" in which Cheryl and Jim went away for the weekend. Without explaining the whole plot, the message was that sometimes you need to set other worries and financial constraints aside to spend time on your marriage. Cheryl noted that in fact they were the only glue holding all the chaos together.

Hmmmm.....interesting how much this applied to the above mentioned telephone conversation. Perhaps it was a message.