An Epic Shift

Taking a look at our calendar a few weeks ago, I realized that in a 2-3 month period we would be spending 1-3 weekends at home. In the midst of that, I had a business trip to Atlanta. We were offered great concert tickets for this weekend and I turned them down because I really just wanted to stay home, to give our boys a summer weekend to just play and do summer stuff. I was starting to worry that Jeremiah would start to ask where we were going on a weekly basis. Joking, but he has become a pretty good little bag packer!

Don't get me wrong. I love spending time with family and friends, and our boys are great travelers. I just really needed some time to feel like I had a grip at home. It worked! And I think the boys had a great day too!

John did make a trip away this weekend to play golf in an outing for my niece's soccer team. My BIL also went with and my sister asked if the boys and I wanted to come over for something to do. Eight months ago I would have taken that offer in a heartbeat, simply to not be alone in our new town. When I realized that I was purposely keeping a weekend with no plans, I realized that I have experienced an epic shift in my emotional relationship with my self and this location. I'm not going to hypothesize on a reason for the shift, if there even is one (or more). There are certainly still issues, but I feel progress not in my relationship with this place but in my relationship with myself to have found the ability to stay here with "nothing to do".