Having my wants...and living here too

We, as humans, have certain monetary needs. Granted, we also have wants. I get nervous about money. No surprise there. So, as J was considering a job opportunity a few months ago, I got very concerned about the financial implications for us. He would have received a pay increase but my career was uncertain. However, it would have relocated us a bit closer to family - not much, but some. Admittedly, I spent one night bawling about leaving our comfort zone here. I was NOT impressed by this community. For a variety of reasons, we decided that perhaps it wasn't the best move for us.



Fast forward to present, J has a great job offer, right here. However, now my heart is heavy with concerns and wonders if we'll ever get closer to home or closer to agriculture. I know animals live in Central IL too but can we afford that lifestyle here either, given that we couldn't rely on some of the services (ie - trailer tranportation) that my family could provide, at least to get us started? I guess it's time to consult with a realtor and a banker.



I'm so excited for J. It's an awesome opportunity that I think he's going to LOVE! I think I'm just in a very reflective place right now wondering what we need to do to MAKE our other goals a reality. I also wonder how our families are really taking the news of us not getting closer. I know what they say, but that's not always truly honest.



As a friend of mine says, all we need is time and money! Where do I sign up for the fairy that delivers both of those?