What was it?

What was it about this week that made it such an uphill climb? Early on in the week I found myself physically, emotionally, and mentally drained! Monday, I understood. We had hosted guests for the Super Bowl. I went in to work unexpected and it was just MONDAY. Then, Tuesday came and I felt like I was having another Monday. And on Wednesday, things really deteriorated. That was the day that an controversial issue at work came up. I stood up for what I believe it right and some others basically told me to shut it. Decisions had been made. I continued to buck the issue and now find myself up thinking about it in the middle of the night. Argh! This has made me realize that perhaps I've had on my rose colored glasses regarding my job. I guess that's for another post.


Thursday was relatively uneventful, short of my oldest kiddo asking if we could go visit his friends in Tipton. Heartbreaking!! And then today, I have a "client" call me rather miffed. He e-mailed at the end of the day to remind me he is not happy. His e-mail was literally 2 lines, one of which was "Not happy!"


On a bright note, I have had an enjoyable evening with my little guys tonight.


I'm not sure what it was about this week, but I sure hope it doesn't repeat itself next week. I don't think I could take it.

We each have our issues...right?

No, this blog has not been abandoned. I've just done much of my journaling in a more personal setting in the past few months. Those that know me well know that I've been dealing with numerous emotional issues and I thought it was just better for me to not air it all to the nice readers of my blog. However, I have continued to turn to writing as a great therapeutic venue.

However, this is a topic that I think others can relate to or might have good insight on...

I learned the 10 commandments when I was a child in Sunday School. I'm not sure I really understood then what coveting was, but I do now. That doesn't mean I don't take a longing look at new homes in the neighborhood or the new car that my coworker might park in the garage. However I know that is wrong and I prioritize our needs and wants rather than think that we need to keep up with the Jones.

Recently, I've found myself yearning for others' lives. It's not that I want their personal belongings, their spouse, their man servant, or their maid servant. It's not "stuff" but rather a feeling that things seem to be going right or working out for other people. Work, personal situations, personal hobbies, and the like seem to fall in to place on a timeline they were hoping for. I wonder if I'm not doing something they've done, or working hard enough. I wonder if things will ever turn out the way I had hoped they might. They seem to for everyone (exagerating here!) but us.

Then, over the past few days I spent some time with various friends and was reminded that we all have our issues. Right? As J-mom says, "same issues, different house." I am finding a bit of comfort that things are not so great for other people. It's awful for me to hope that situations won't work out for others, but perhaps I just feel like I need some "company". I continue to want things to go our way but perhaps I just needed to see that we all face different challenges that may not work out, ever. However, I have a long way to go in not yearning for the "ease" of life that I think others have.

I could probably continue to ramble at this point, but I'll stop, hope that this makes sense and wait for some comments.