We each have our issues...right?
No, this blog has not been abandoned. I've just done much of my journaling in a more personal setting in the past few months. Those that know me well know that I've been dealing with numerous emotional issues and I thought it was just better for me to not air it all to the nice readers of my blog. However, I have continued to turn to writing as a great therapeutic venue.
However, this is a topic that I think others can relate to or might have good insight on...
I learned the 10 commandments when I was a child in Sunday School. I'm not sure I really understood then what coveting was, but I do now. That doesn't mean I don't take a longing look at new homes in the neighborhood or the new car that my coworker might park in the garage. However I know that is wrong and I prioritize our needs and wants rather than think that we need to keep up with the Jones.
Recently, I've found myself yearning for others' lives. It's not that I want their personal belongings, their spouse, their man servant, or their maid servant. It's not "stuff" but rather a feeling that things seem to be going right or working out for other people. Work, personal situations, personal hobbies, and the like seem to fall in to place on a timeline they were hoping for. I wonder if I'm not doing something they've done, or working hard enough. I wonder if things will ever turn out the way I had hoped they might. They seem to for everyone (exagerating here!) but us.
Then, over the past few days I spent some time with various friends and was reminded that we all have our issues. Right? As J-mom says, "same issues, different house." I am finding a bit of comfort that things are not so great for other people. It's awful for me to hope that situations won't work out for others, but perhaps I just feel like I need some "company". I continue to want things to go our way but perhaps I just needed to see that we all face different challenges that may not work out, ever. However, I have a long way to go in not yearning for the "ease" of life that I think others have.
I could probably continue to ramble at this point, but I'll stop, hope that this makes sense and wait for some comments.
However, this is a topic that I think others can relate to or might have good insight on...
I learned the 10 commandments when I was a child in Sunday School. I'm not sure I really understood then what coveting was, but I do now. That doesn't mean I don't take a longing look at new homes in the neighborhood or the new car that my coworker might park in the garage. However I know that is wrong and I prioritize our needs and wants rather than think that we need to keep up with the Jones.
Recently, I've found myself yearning for others' lives. It's not that I want their personal belongings, their spouse, their man servant, or their maid servant. It's not "stuff" but rather a feeling that things seem to be going right or working out for other people. Work, personal situations, personal hobbies, and the like seem to fall in to place on a timeline they were hoping for. I wonder if I'm not doing something they've done, or working hard enough. I wonder if things will ever turn out the way I had hoped they might. They seem to for everyone (exagerating here!) but us.
Then, over the past few days I spent some time with various friends and was reminded that we all have our issues. Right? As J-mom says, "same issues, different house." I am finding a bit of comfort that things are not so great for other people. It's awful for me to hope that situations won't work out for others, but perhaps I just feel like I need some "company". I continue to want things to go our way but perhaps I just needed to see that we all face different challenges that may not work out, ever. However, I have a long way to go in not yearning for the "ease" of life that I think others have.
I could probably continue to ramble at this point, but I'll stop, hope that this makes sense and wait for some comments.
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