Sans outline
So much has been happening that I actually made an outline (or at least made notes) of what I wanted to blog about last week. I never actually wrote the entry, however. So here goes a brain dump without really thinking through it first.
Since my last entry, I've been tightly strapped in to an emotional roller coaster ride. We had a great getaway with friends in Michigan's Harbor Country. It was an escape from reality that I certainly needed. After that I was revived and determined that it was time to quit anticipating my fears about the move and be ready to just face them in a few short weeks. My fears are certainly still real but I can't start to overcome them until I'm actually dealing with them.
In the mean time, there are certainly some tears being shed. This is the little man's last week of daycare at his providers because she is on vacation next week. She has been an amazing part of his life and development and I'm going to miss seeing his daily interactions with her. There is a special bond there that comforts me as I venture off to spend my day away from him. She has planned some special activities for them this week and shared with me that she is making him a scrapbook of his time with her. I'm looking forward to bringing him back to visit and she wants to come see us when the new baby arrives.
We had a good weekend this weekend too, but it was also hard to know that it was our last "normal" weekend here. We enjoyed an early birthday celebration for JT at a local bowling alley, which included Jeremiah bowling for the first time. He had a blast. It was wonderful to spend time with some great friends too!
I realize that I have made this home and I'm leaving home all over again. I sucked at it 11 years ago and I'm not much better now!
On a different note, I'm continuing to be amazed by Jeremiah's development. In the past week, he has learned to operate the computer mouse, leading to him playing games on PBS kids by himself. He's pretty skilled at Cookie Monsters Letter of the Day game! On Sunday, he informed me that dentist started with "d". OK. He's right, but did he just figure that out or get it somewhere?
I'm hoping to soon have more time to relish the miracle that's happening in my own body. With everything else going on, I worry that the weeks are flying by and I'm forgetting to enjoy all the amazing aspects of my pregnancy. That's really disappointing for me, because, for the most part, I enjoy being pregnant.
It's time to pack a few more boxes, and try to get to bed early. I doubt that will happen but it's a nice thought.
Since my last entry, I've been tightly strapped in to an emotional roller coaster ride. We had a great getaway with friends in Michigan's Harbor Country. It was an escape from reality that I certainly needed. After that I was revived and determined that it was time to quit anticipating my fears about the move and be ready to just face them in a few short weeks. My fears are certainly still real but I can't start to overcome them until I'm actually dealing with them.
In the mean time, there are certainly some tears being shed. This is the little man's last week of daycare at his providers because she is on vacation next week. She has been an amazing part of his life and development and I'm going to miss seeing his daily interactions with her. There is a special bond there that comforts me as I venture off to spend my day away from him. She has planned some special activities for them this week and shared with me that she is making him a scrapbook of his time with her. I'm looking forward to bringing him back to visit and she wants to come see us when the new baby arrives.
We had a good weekend this weekend too, but it was also hard to know that it was our last "normal" weekend here. We enjoyed an early birthday celebration for JT at a local bowling alley, which included Jeremiah bowling for the first time. He had a blast. It was wonderful to spend time with some great friends too!
I realize that I have made this home and I'm leaving home all over again. I sucked at it 11 years ago and I'm not much better now!
On a different note, I'm continuing to be amazed by Jeremiah's development. In the past week, he has learned to operate the computer mouse, leading to him playing games on PBS kids by himself. He's pretty skilled at Cookie Monsters Letter of the Day game! On Sunday, he informed me that dentist started with "d". OK. He's right, but did he just figure that out or get it somewhere?
I'm hoping to soon have more time to relish the miracle that's happening in my own body. With everything else going on, I worry that the weeks are flying by and I'm forgetting to enjoy all the amazing aspects of my pregnancy. That's really disappointing for me, because, for the most part, I enjoy being pregnant.
It's time to pack a few more boxes, and try to get to bed early. I doubt that will happen but it's a nice thought.
posted by MJ at
9:07 PM
2 Comments:
Oh, sweetie, embrace the journey and live each day as if it were your last. Don't waste it on worry and fear. Go forward with great excitement and anticipation. God will not disappoint. His plans are perfect and this is a wonderful time for your whole family! Best of luck w/ the packing and the goodbyes.
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badger girl, At
10:01 AM
Oh, Marla I know moving makes you feel crazy... even when everything goes well. I still manage to have random fits of crying about things and I moved six months ago. I can only imagine how much more intense it is with a little one and pregnancy hormones. I have to agree with Badger Girl though, embrace the wonderful changes and excitement and know that so many people are praying for you and your family. Gods plans are awesome, even if we are a little slow to realize it. We are excited to have you guys close... you can take the girls out of Illini country, but you can't take the Illini out of the girls.
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Jano Fabulous, At
11:18 AM
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